Of course I was drunk, silly goose. D'ya think I'd do such a thing sober?


I had an epiphany last night...but I forgot, 'round about the time that I was walking purposefully through the neighborhood at 3 AM in nothing but my bathrobe. Oh, and clutching a nasty reminder of how easily dupped I am. Waking this morning served me with a sober epiphany, and this one is sticking with me. This reminder that I thought was so cheap and fake was actually quite authentic upon inspection in the light of day, which led me to quite a few conclusions:

A. I'm a big fat jerk, not once or twice but continually
2. I am so convinced that certain things are out to get me, to trip me up and make me fall. I can be so suspicious and judgemental. When truly, in the light of day, all of the shadows that distracted me were never really there at all. I was making them up, maybe to protect myself, maybe b/c I'm conditioned, doesn't really matter when you get right down to it, huh?
III. It's time for me to get over this stuff