I'm letting the thoughts in my head put themselves in order.

Then I'll think them.

We'll see how it goes from there.


I want to find the words, so that I can speak my feelings. Currently I wait for Music to pull tears from my eyes, or something beautiful or stark or simple to make my heart swell with whatever to the point of pain...I thought that I was constantly searching for things to make me feel...but it's starting to look like I'm looking for things to make me speak.

Is there really a difference?