I had my ipod on way too loud this morning – the bass in all of the songs was pounding away at my eardrums. But I didn’t care. I needed all of that throbbing noise to cancel out my gushing, tangled thoughts. I stood at the door of the subway and looked out as we passed the platform into the tunnel, when the view became dark I closed my eyes and willed my brain to completely absorb the music and just live off of that emotional sustenance for awhile.

I WANT the intensity of that bass – I want it to be my heartbeat.