"It's a beautifuull day..."

Yeah for the Ashley, AKA the Weather Girl, calling me three time from the U2 concert in Hot-lanta. I'm miles and miles away, and I still got chills listening to them over the phone. Two of the Four get to rock it out - I'm so simultaneously jealous of and happy for you.

Matthew if I knew your middle name I would put it here Hevey, if you do not call me soon I will begin to take it personally it's not as if I smell bad or look funny because I am far far away and I would rather not be worried about you anymore at least e-mail me your address so I can send you a CD that I bought specifically for you because the band made me think of you and I miss you so throw a sister a bone here. Whew!

I HATE BEING A WAITRESS. It's all in the title; SERVE-R. One who SERVES. Blech. Is what I think about that.

Oh boy, am I in a mood. Think I'll go to bed and let my spirit ruminate on this one in my dreams.

"Met a girl in the setting sun...
knew right away she was a special one...
lost the girl but she soon returned...
with one more chance and a
lesson learned..."

Alonely - Panic and the Rebel Emergency

That's right, I'm talkin' to you.

I saw a band tonight, at Arlene's Grocery in the East Village. A bit of sublime revisited. A bit of the St. Augustine, Stir It Up flavor. "Every little thing's, gonna be alright..." MY GOD. I fell in love again tonight. Such a voice. Such a combination of hemp cord and silk...the way life should feel, the way love should be. Rough and hard and beautifully sweet. And the energy - these guys loved each other, what they were doing, the music that inhabited their souls that they were now able to share with us. I know that I have some creativity of my own to share. And I think I should be so blessed.

So naturally my mind goes into high gear, and I start thinking of all the wise things I've heard people say about doing what you love. It seems to me that letting go of the inhibitions, reaching for what you want and what you really and truly desire, starts those things that are supposed to happen in motion. "Here I am life. Here is everything good, everything bad that I possess, take it, it's yours." In return, you get what you came here for. Not to say that life is a fairytale; all will be perfect in the end, with white horses and wonderful princes and castles in a cloudless, sunset-tinted sky. But life will be real, ya know? Something that just is, instead of an existence that is forced into some little mold that everyone assumes is happiness.

Thank God. Thank You so much for the music. The words. They are what life is to me. And thank You for allowing me to be in a place where all of this is at my fingertips.

"Here I am waiting...
waiting patiently...
'cause I know my blessing
is coming to me yeah
here I am kneeling on my knees
giving thanks and praises
for all I recieve yeah

Oh it's never as hard as it seems...
as long as there's life there are hopes
and dreams..."

Here I am - Panic and The Rebel Emergency